Thursday, January 26, 2012


CW: 158.6
GW: 155
UGW: 115

I'm still losing, but it's only like 0.2 pounds a day or every other day. Over the course of a week that's almost one and a half pounds. If I look at it long term then that's fine, but the problem is that I don't look at it long term. Maybe I should try to be happy with long term more sustainable weight loss, but I'm not. If I don't see the numbers on the scale drop quickly I'm not happy. That's when the sabotage starts. I sit around all day and hardly do anything and I stuff my face. I can't even work up the energy to burn some of it off with exercise. What the hell is wrong with me? I should be happy that I'm losing, no matter how small the number is. Ugh, I can't even work up the energy to be mad at myself.

I might have a part time job soon, so that's good. I can save some money for new clothes when I get thin... if that ever happens.

No! No more negative thoughts. Tomorrow is a new day and it will go well. I will count my calories and use the elliptical and do weight training. I won't sit around all day. I'll be productive, I'll get my room cleaned, do some cooking, read a book, get some writing done, do some studying. Tomorrow will be good.

Ok, enough of the pep talk because it's getting weird. Hi to new followers Leigh.Cherie, stillimagining, and ellie3D.

PrettyLies, we should definitely do a liquid fast together on V day, I've never done one before so lets hope I don't wimp out.

Stillimagining, thanks so much, and thanks for tips and the link it was really helpful :)

I love this pic so much, it is exactly what I want my legs to look like. Thin and smooth, with the perfect amount of thigh gap.

Love you guys,


  1. Yes! Say no to negative thoughts! & u will definitely have a gud day 2morrow:) its ur day, it sounds so lovely & productive as well! U'll definitely feel better once u release some of those endorphins:P Stay strong<3

  2. Awe thanks so much, that's a way better pep talk than I could ever give myself.