For the past couple of days I've weighed in at 160 or higher and it was really getting me down. Now I'm down to 159.2 which doesn't seem like a lot but being in the 150s again really means a lot to me. I feel a lot better now that I'm back in the 150s and I'm ready to give being thin my all again. Yesterday my boss said he'd get me a large shirt and I felt so ashamed. It was so hard not to cry. Then I got home and was like "I'm already fat so I might as well eat like it" and ate so much chocolate. My grandma got me chocolates for valentines day, which was really sweet of her but it's hard to have them and not be tempted. They're very high calorie and sugar, but I do need to finish them because I feel aweful about throwing out food. I just feel insanely guilty, plus my family doesn't have a lot of money so throwing out food seems like a slap in the face to my parents. I would give them to my mom but she doesn't eat chocolate, my dad's about to start some crazy intense diet so my mom will kill me if I pawn them off on him and my brother can't have the milk in them. Oh well. I'll just suck it up and eat one a day, so that's 110 calories extra. I'll just have to be extra careful about my other meals. My parents are really starting to crack down on saving money because we had to buy an extra car so that my brother and I can get to work. It's a really cheap run down car, but it still cost more than they would have liked. AHHH! Stressing about money does not help with my anxiety, and my anxiety makes me want comfort food. This is no help. Anyone have any good recipes for food that's somehow comforting, filling, low calorie, and inexpensive? I feel like I'm asking for a miracle.
Hope all of you lovely ladies are having a good weekend