Gone

I can't do school. My brain stopped working. It doesn't think anymore. It doesn't remember what most feelings are supposed to feel like. It remembers sad but not how to cry. If I could cry maybe it would be over. But my brain doesn't remember how to make my tearducts work. It can't remember the answers to the questions, it can't remember what the question was in the first place. All it knows is the sad, and the empty. It knows enough to know it would rather be numb. To feel absolutely nothing would be bliss.

But I can't remember how to do that either.