Up Up and Away

My weight is skyrocketing and my mood is plummeting. I stayed with a relative for most of this week so that I could take public transportation to school instead of driving. It saved me lots of money, since I have to fill up about three times a week when I drive to school and back on weekdays, and only have to fill up maybe every week and a half when I'm just driving to work. I was really proud of myself all week. I didn't have the Internet most of the time so I couldn't check the calories in what I was eating, but I did try my best to eat healthy and said no several times a day to cookies that were offered. Even sometimes when I said no thank you she would still fill up a plate and set them beside me when I was studying. As a result of this, my weight has shot back up to 145. Does it make me sound childish and melodramatic when I say that I feel like my life is over? Tomorrow morning I am back to strict counting. I'm not going to eat anything outside of the things that I choose ahead of time.

Some updates in my life of random stuff that I feel you ladies out there in bloggerland should know. I cleaned my room today. Finally. I've been avoiding it because it had just gotten so terrible I didn't know where to start. My closet is finally cleaned. Well not completely, but it's one of those things that once I've got it cleaned I need to start over again because I'm sure that there's something that I missed. I think the system that I have right now is good though so hopefully it lasts. I have my pants then my skirts then my more summery blazers then my longer blazers, then sweaters, then sweaterdresses, then dresses (organised casual towards more dressy) and finally my more costume dresses. I only got lost on the bus and subway twice this week, which I don't think is too bad. Most importantly of all I wore wedges for three days in a row to school. I felt so self conscious the entire time, but I managed to do it. They looked really cute and they tone your legs so much while you're wearing them apparently.

Comments:
PrettyLies:  Aha I'm sure Ana would be thrilled if I told her to make a sandwich. I love your positivity so much, hopefully I can be there soon. I love tea and music, not so much working out...maybe I can teach myself to love working out lol. thanks, and you've already done so much just by commenting. seriously reading everyones comments is like THE best thing to brighten my day

Vampire: Thanks so much, hugs. hopefully i get some of that luck soon

Venus: Wow that's so much, good for you sweetie. I would rather an hourglass figure than a pear shape like I have right now. All bum and no boobs is no fun. But I would rather be thin as a rail than have an hourglass figure. Honestly at this point I would settle for someone looking at me as a sex object, I just want someone to look at me at all. gosh that sounds pathetic of me :p