Monday, December 03, 2012


I'm losing my mind right now. I eat for hours and then I don't eat at all. I need to just not eat. The weight isn't coming off fast enough and I don't know what to do. Squats until my thighs scream. I would do push ups until my arms collapse but that happens on the first pushup. I have no upper body strength. I am a dissapointment.


 Vampire: wish i could say that I did better. who knows, maybe today will be different. and what? I am not lucky! it's an hour and a half bus ride both ways. I wish I could walk or bike to school. Think of all the calories burned you lucky duck.

PrettyLies: your're right. it's completelymessed up. the only problem is that i don't know how to break out of it. but today is a new day right?


  1. If you have no upper body strength, woork to get some. Honestly, a lot of people say fitness is bad for those suffering with an ED, and it can be if it gets obsessive, but for me it's turned me around. If you start small and work your way up, you can do great things. If you want I can help you start out, and slowly increasing reps and difficulty, you will see results, you will have upper body strength. Let me know, I have a whole semester's worth of input. I took a bootcamp class and my instructor is awesome.

    1. I know this wasn't directed at me, but i'd love to hear the input for it. I am looking for a way to start. I have no upper body strength either. =P But I want some. You can email me at

  2. Hmm... to help me with my completely crap upper arm strength, I started with less demanding pushups. There are the "girly" pushups (Google it), or doing it standing against a wall.. (like a vertical pushup). If you work your arm strength up with easier ones, you'll get strong enough to start doing regular pushups. =)

    Hm true about the calories burned... XD Though it's hard to think about that when you have to bike in the freezing cold to some ungodly early class. >_<

  3. Liebster award on my blog. <3!!

    I know how you feel about the weight not coming off. I allowed myself to get back to a weight I'd promised never to see again and it's so upsetting, and it's taking forever to come off. But we can do it!