Monday, November 26, 2012


How the fuck did I get so fat? I was so close to 140 when school started and now I'm 0.1 pound away from being150 again. NO! I won't let that happen. I can't let that happen. Honestly I think I'll die before I let that happen. No food today. If I must eat...well that's just too damn bad. I want to be 130 by christmas. I have 28 days until christmas eve. That's 28 days to lose 19.9 pounds. That's 0.71 pounds a day. If one pound is 3500 calories that`s a total calorie defecit of 69,650. So I need to be have a deficit of 2487.5 a day. Holy crap I`m screwed.


  1. Please be careful... And bulimia's nothing to aspire to. Trust me. It's hell. And you'll gain all that weight back and more as soon as your body adjusts to your bulimic binge/purge cycle. The human body is way too smart.... =/

    Be kind to yourself. <3

  2. Thanks for the concern, but no need to worry. No matter how much I wish I could puke it's never going to happen. Even when I have the flu I can't throw up.

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