This is the week I hit 145

By friday, when I come home from school, I will be 145 pounds. At the most. Really I should be less than that by now. But I'm setting myself a goal that hopefully isn't too big. This way, when I reach it I'll feel good and keep going. My other motivation is that my friend Shaye is messing up my life again. She owes me a ton of money and hasn't paid me back in months. She wants to hang out soon and I want to be thinner than her when we do. I'll still be her friend and we'll go out to dinner and I'll order food and she won't because she's broke. But I won't eat the food and she will. I'm going to make sure it's the most fattening thing on the menu. Gosh, I'm such a good friend. More workout video's this week so hopefully I'll be more toned for the weekend too. I want to be 115 for the beginning of this summer.

148

So I ate lots of food the past two days. My weight could be better than it is. I started doing workout videos and am going to try P90X tonight. I'll let you all know how that goes. So there's this guy. And he asked me out. He told me that I'm not fat, but that I'm not skinny. I think he was trying to say that I'm in the middle, which is good. But it's not good. Not to me.